ya kan?

sesaat saya dapat ide. wah. keren. saya suka.

sesaat kemudian saya menghadap monitor. terpampang halaman kosong. untuk diisi.

saya tahu apa yang harus saya tulis.

tapi entah mengapa saya lebih suka memalingkan wajah.

lagi.

malu.

saya yakin saya punya yang lebih baik.

itu sifat dasar.

perfeksionis.

semua orang bilang dia ini dia itu dia perfeksionis dia bukan.

asalnya sama.

kamu juga.

ya kan?

wordplay.

sejenak tadi aku berpikir tentangmu
salahkah?
maaf, tapi sulit membuatmu menghilang dari pikirku
sejenak banyak kata berlari dalam khayalku
salahkah?
maaf aku hanya mengkhawatirkan persepsimu
ah masa bodoh!
persepsimu persepsiku
sama saja kan?
kan kita satu
begitu kan katamu?
aku percaya seutuhnya
kupikir kau sama hitam,
tapi ternyata abu abu
kupikir kita sama putih,
nyatanya masih abu abu
kenapa?
maafkan aku mengemis maaf dan kasihmu
begitu kan?
tidak?
berarti kau belum tau diriku
aku penuh harap padamu
tolong jangan acuhkan
tolong jangan hancurkan

entah saya juga bingung ada apa.
-B.

i'm sorry.
i just want to care about you.
no. i don't want to care.
but i do care.

thousand tears from B.

i'm full of word "RECENT"

i took this from fira's old blog :) seems fun!

-Recent Obsession: Leica ; do some photographs ; blogging ; chitchat everywhere.
-Recent Project: new band ; new bussiness ; success-homework
-Recent Activity: sleeping ; crash the keyboard ; mix max my outfits
-Recent Problem: pimples? ; signal!
-Recent Sad Moment: leaving my hometown ; leaving my boyfriend far far away
-Recent Happy Moment: first monthly anniversary ; watch 3 idiots with my bf
-Recent Blank Moment: doing homework
-Recent Silly Moment: taking pictures of myself when i just woke up ; fail pose
-Recent Embarassing Moment: i... actually really forgot about it
-Recent Phobia: forever and always butterflies ; crabs
-Recent Social Network: blogger ; twitter ; what again?
-Recent Nickname: ratuunyu *whattheheck*
-Recent Movie: 3 idiots ; kambingjantan
-Recent Book: mandarin text book ; history text book ; maths text book
-Recent Music: Baby It's Fact - Hellogoodbye ; Therapy - All Time Low ; Viva La Vida cover by boyce avenue
-Recent Lullaby: Body and Soul by Frank Sinatra
-Recent Boy Crush: Haryo Ramadantyo ; Aamr Khan ; Arya Aditya Ramadhya
-Recent Girl Crush: Katy Perry ; Kareena Kapoor
-Recent Model: Andy Torres
-Recent Designer: Kenley Collins
-Recent Photographer: my boyfriend
-Recent Lyrics: "baby it's fact that our love is true, the way black is black"

oh God. i'm enough with word "RECENT".
-B.

If NOBODY IS PERFECT for you,
then i want to be that NOBODY.

-Anonymous-

goodnight people, sleeptight :*
lovely B.

Therapy

"My ship went down in a sea of sound
When i woke up alone I had everything
A handful of moments I wish I could change
But a tongue like a nightmare that cut like a blade

In a city of fool, I was careful and cool
But they tore me apart like a hurricane
A handful of moments I wish I could change
But I was carried away

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can keep all your misery

My lungs gave out as I faced the crowds
I think that keeping this up could be dangerous
I'm flesh and bone, I'm a rolling stone
And the experts say I'm delirious

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can take back your misery

Arrogant boy,
Love yourself so no one has to
They're better off without you

Arrogant boy,
'Cause a scene like you're supposed to
They'll fall asleep without you
You're lucky if your memory remains

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can take back your misery

Give me therapy, I'm a walking travesty
But I'm smiling at everything
Therapy, you were never a friend to me
You can choke on your misery"

ALL TIME LOW - THERAPY

i heart this song so fuckin damn much and getting more since my bf loves to sing it to me on the phone♥ and i love alex gaskarth's voice here.

lovely,
-B.